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I can’t take it anymore with dad. I don’t get it. It’s like no matter what I do I can never make him happy, I always screw up somehow and i just don’t know how to make him get off my back. Let alone make him happy. And OK, i know it sounds super crazy writing this out, but I have to get this out there. I really feel like i have a calling of some kind, I’ve felt it ever since I was a kid, with like me knowing grandma died even though i’ve never met her and Mrs. Guilarma telling me it wasn’t a suicide in my dreams, and mom’s disappearance and all.But my dad and I. We had an argument tonight about it. It was pretty bad, too. Not like last week or the times before that. He wont let me do anything at all and i’m so sick of it. I get he’s upset about the werewolf thing and calling the cops on me. Or trespassing. Or Jenny going to the hospital. It was stupid I know- all of it was so stupid. I get it, I get that I messed up and I said I was sorry but he wouldn’t let it go at all. But in the middle of it all he brought up mom again- said I’d end up just like her- and i guess, i dunno, things got out of hand? And i told him that mom wasn’t here, that it was his fault if anything. and he was like, “you think i’m using her as an excuse?” and i said, yeah, you are, and he was like, “OK, maybe i am.” which is crazy, because he thought that was AN OK EXCUSE. I asked him why and he said that same bullcrap that it was because i was the only family member he had left, and he was afraid of me leaving him because he’d be alone. And its just insane to me. I get i did stupid stuff but half of all my problems are because he worries too much. And I got so mad. I said some things… i feel bad but i dont regret them. I basically told him it was his fault and so what i wanted to leave, i’m 22 years old?? Like, there was a lot i said but that was the jist of it. And now he’s not talking to me. I've never seen him so angry but he just left the room. And again i dont regret the things i said, or… maybe i do, but not because they weren’t true, but i just feel bad because of how he reacted. I've never seen him like that before. He even said not to come into work tomorrow and that was it. I have my fan going because i think he’s crying and i really can’t stand listening to him like that. It’s all just kind of insane. I hate that i’m stuck here. I hate that i barely have any friends and I wish I had a dad who was proud of me acing my classes, but as long as they aren’t related to cars or running his stupid shop he doesn’t care. I hate that I’m stuck here in a bunk town and the only school I could go to was a community college a town away. I hate the fact i never met my mom because I bet she would’ve made life worth living. Dad never talks about her but when he does he seems really happy. But then he told me tonight that she just left us. Right after I was born, too, like a year after or something. Said he never wanted to tell me because it would taint my image of her, but i don't believe that all all, because if it was that simple why does he still love her so much after all of that? Why would he refuse to talk about her like that until now? I was always told that “something happened” to her, that she died- not that she just left like that. So maybe she did leave, but it had to be for a reason, something so secret dad refuses to tell me. I dont know how but i want to find out. Mom’s memory box has stuff about her in it. I just want to know what happened. I want closure. Because dad isn’t giving it to me. Something happened to mom and I know it’s got to be supernatural because why else would he be wary of this ghost stuff, and not want me to go places? I must have inherited something from her, it’s why i can hear ghosts and i need to use my powers for more than just stupid clicks on my website and extra cash on the side. I'm not sure how but i have to leave. I want to find mom. Im taking her things with me and im taking the car I cant take this anymore